Friday, May 02, 2008

Some Kind of New Record

I think this may well be a new record for me! Two posts in as many days - could this become a habit???

My plan initially for the rest of this week after finishing work - was to take stock, make lists & start putting some systems into action. Then I thought "Hey, why put pressure on yourself - isn't that what you've been doing all along.....putting undue pressure on yourself to achieve & then feeling inadequate when you don't". In short the answer was "yes".
So I made a conscious decision to just relax for the rest of this week, quiet contemplation would perhaps allow me the time needed to just quietly think about my options for the future, but I feel a few things will fall into place of their own accord.

The most unexpected, yet welcome, thing has been that almost from the second I finished work on Monday night, knowing that on Tuesday it would be all over - the need to create returned, after an extremely long absence.

A beautiful, yet in my eye's, inferior bead had been sitting on my work table for months - with me glowering at it every time I noticed it. It had gone wrong at the torch - a Bordello base laden with expensive silver glass decoration, it was imperfect on one end & therefore not suitable for the exchange it was intended for.

Monday night I was inspired, so I played with the meagre remains of my somewhat dry PMC. Then I attacked some Sterling Silver Wire - with pliers, a torch & a hammer!!! "Sacrilegious" - one might think.....
I, on the other hand, feel that the result was worth it ~

In fact I am extremely pleased with this piece, proud in fact - I can say that out loud & believe me that's a first!!
There is something else in my life that I am extremely proud of right now - or rather someone.

For years I watched while this child of mine with a higher than average intelligence, noisily waste both it & himself in the hospitality industry. My party animal, Kieran - the times I quietly hoped (& occasionally prayed) that one day he would follow his dream - the dream that started when he was 4 years old & was put on hold when he discovered girls at 14 ;)

He finally has ~

1 comment:

rosebud101 said...

Great blog, Deb. I think you're on your way!